F.R.I.E.N.D..

FRIEND?...hurmm...such an easy word to define n understand...i have the same experience too about friend...it started 3 years ago...i recognized him...we start to get along...it tough though...hurmm..3 years been a good, i mean best friend is not an easy thing...we've gone through a lot of joy,pain,struggling in our life and shared our problems....he knows my true colors, he know inside n my outside....he knows everything...but,now...all of a sudden..everything TOTALLY changed...hurmmm..:(...just because of that 1 message,everything is changed...he's not the same friend that i knew..every time we passed by, he just turn his smile like we didn't know each other...how can that happened?.. every time he saw my face, it seems like he saw a ghost...that's so sad...and, i've been thinking....after all these 3 years,he just changed like that?...so,our friendship is priceless?...or,am i a bad friend?..am i a type of person that can't be called a friend?...if that the case, i think it's better for me to just be a friend..not a bestfriend....:(

L.i.F.e.....

hye....:(...hurmm...time sy tulis post nie,i feels so miserable...it has been a week my big.bro passed away...but,i think i still can't get over it....sometimes, sy sendiri confident kan diri sy yg semua tu sudah takdir...tp,at the same time sy mau ketepikan hal tu,sy terus t'ingat my late brother...bukan apa,sy still shocked n x dpt accept yg dia xda suda...huhuhuhu...if only sy boleh nangis time tu jg,sy maw owh...mmg lah skrg nie sy boleh gelak2 n ketawa mah kawan2 sy yg lain,tp sy rasa mcm semua tu kosong....sy always ingat pasal abg sy...i know that i can't be like this forever....if only i can tell someone about my feeling now.....:(...

my NEW atmosphere...=)

wahhhh!!!..it has been a long time since my last post...hehehehe...xtau lah napa mlm nie tiba2 ja t'gerak nie jari mau menulis...hehehe...=)..maybe ada reason kot...haha..mmg ada pun...actually,cuti sem.2 bulan(xda cuti pun)make me think a lot of stuff...hahaha...sy rasa,punya lah bengong sy wasting time utk benda/org/hal2 yg b'kaitan...aduiii!!!..menyesal nie..padahal,bagus lagi hidup mcm skrg..hahaha...FREE!!!...actually,sy baru revealed nie benda bbrpa hari yg lalu...sy rasa,x pyh lah care pasal org yg x tau appreciate kita...so,sy moved on with my busy life...wah??..first2 tu,mmg rasa ganjil@janggal jg kan...tp,kena jg biasakn diri...luckily,time sy try mau kasi lupa semua hal tu,sy jumpa someone...YES!!..someone yg buat sy rasa this world doesn't feel so lame..hahaha..seriously!!!..that person buat sy rasa 1 perasaan yg x pernah sy rasa before this...aduiii!!...sy x pernah kenal org yg boleh buat sy senyum2 sndri nie...i LOIKE it so much!!..so,from now on..better sy just loyal sama dia ja...happy ja memanjang...kurang stress...lambat jg muka sy tua..hahaha...skrg nie,kami kira ok2 ja..sama2 happy with this situation...hehehe...i think,itu ja kot yg sy mau btau...hahaha..toodles!!!...=)

P.I.S.S.E.D O.F.F.!!!

SHIZ!!!!....thats the only word i can say right now!!...gosh!!..perlukah dia m'buruk2kan aku d depan kawan aku yg laen?..for god sake,no need lah kau buat mcm tu utk dpt perhatian dorg!!..just b yourself!!..wait the minute...or,mmg diri kau yg sebenar mcm nie??...so pathetic ok!!...pliz lah!!..aku kesian tgok kau..jgn bah kau pretend yg kau ambil berat pasal problem ktorg sdgkn at the same time kau "m'cucuk" kami..kau fhm kan maksud aku?..klu kau bodoh sangat,mksud aku jgn jadi TALAM BERIBU2 MUKA!!!..jgn sampai aku hilang sabar dowh!!..aku x kisah pun klu kaki aku sampai d muka kau...kau belum tau lagi sepa aku...better kau p terjun bangunan lah dgn nasihat2 shit kau tuh!...mmg klu org yg PLASTIK, tetap akan jadi PLASTIK bah!!...last but not least, I'm feel sorry for you,BITCH!

C.O.N.F.U.S.E.D...

OMG!!...really2 need someone to talk to me about something personal..this thing always goes around in my mind and i'm kinda stress about it...am i really2 that type of person?..or,it just me that confuse with my own life?..God...if only i was destined to be that type of person,i'll accept it because i know it is my own route of life...=(...i know if i choose it, i will make peoples, especially my family, friends and peoples that know me for who i used to be feeling sad and devastated..hurmm...i just need a simple answer..YES or NO???...

Un-Break My Heart - Toni Braxton

GOSH!!!...if only......

XieXie ni,Jennifer!!!

special thanks to Ms.Jennifer Grace Herman for helping me to manage my blog...hahaha...klu mau m'harap aku yg ubah2 benda nie,hurmmm...xda2 nie...aku sangat malas+x tau amcm mau ubah nie benda...(wah!!!..pengakuan eksklusif)...hahaha...thanx,Jen..=)

hahaha...TRANSFORMATION???...

hehehe...feels a lil' bit funny when i want to start writing about this post...hahaha..begini cerita benda nie...sy baru ja balik dari jogging td..then,makan2 maggi yg x sedap and go through my FB...then,tiba2 t'ingat sy masih ada FRIENDSTER account...(OMG!!..i know it's so LAME!!!)..haha..tp,sy buka pun bukan mau tgok comment/message..pliz lah...sbb,sy tiba2 t'ingt yg gmbr2 lama sy pernah upload d ctu..haha..ya ampun!!..after tgok semua tuh gmbr doulu2,punya lah sy ketawa!!!...sejak bila pula sy punya gaya sangat OUT-DATED???...hahaha...funny nie...aduii!!..then sy p bgtau c Jen(1 of my friend)..then,dia cabar sy supaya letak d blog..neyh!!..ini lah tuh,Jen..haha..betul juga apa yg dia btau..blog bukan setakat mau letak post2 yg feeling2 ja..ahahaha..OKAY,back to business!...nie d bwh nie ada lah sikit gmbr yg sy grab dari FS...aduii!!.korg evaluate lah sndri...hahaha..=)

hahaha..ini gmbr after SPM..p cuti2 kunun d Ranau..

nah!!!..ambil kau!!..nie gmbr time keberangkatan mau p matriks nie..aduii!!..sy masih ingat lagi,time nie mau menangis nie..aduii!!..1st time kan jauh dari family...

erghh??...who's this?..YEAH!!..that's me!!..OMG!!..this is what people call SKEMA!!!...sy pun rasa hairan nie..napa lah sy nie t'lampau skema...aduii!!..btw,nie time matriks nie...

OKAY!!..this is me NOW..hurmm..different,right?...adeii...though my age is 21, i look more young than before...wah?..hahaha..yuckeen lah bah!!..

that's all for now fellas~!!...=)

the wheels turn upside down again...=(

ermm...hye,there...like usual, i'll only start writing when i faced some serious problem(kinda) in my life..though i smile, i still about that problem...and, from there i will make my own evaluation...but, the truth is that problem is not serious...it just me that over-reacted...that makes peoples sick of my attitude...

p/s: I seriously need to change my attitude before others become sick of me....=(

OMGosHHHH!!!!

hurmm...okay,i admit i was wrong...but,why am i acting stupid like little brat?..gosh!!..this time,it was totally my fault!..how am i gonna face this problem?..just let it be like this?..hurmmm..if that gonna make this problem automatically solved,i rather sit down and shut up my stupido mouth!...huhuhu...i can't stand it any longer...huhuhu...=(

=(...

am i look like a clown?..or,some kind of joker to you guys?...i'm a human too ok..i do have my sad moment...why can't you guys differentiate it?..

errmmm....

am I being so emotional?...hurmmm..i don't know..guess what?..i think i can't live any seconds without seeing you...crazy right?..but,that's the truth..eventhough i know it's wrong,still i can't get rid off it...huhuhu...the way you treat me make me feel so happy...nothing can defeat that...but,i know we can't cross the border line....

it's been a very long time since....

OMGoshhh!!!..it's been a very long2 time since my last post...hurmm...guess,i don't have anything@any stories to share@i forgot about it...neway, this week have been very tough for me b'coz it EXAM week...hahaha...but,i'm still here acting like nothing is happening...ignore that...yess!!..i already found my long-lasting happiness...hopefully,it will owez stick like this...wah?..hahaha..but,it's true...i'm so DAMN happy right now...=)

W.O.W...!!!!

yeahh!!!!!!!...I fall in love with my condition right now..thanx God!!!...

H.A.P.P.Y. MODE activated!!!..=)

wow!!!..thanx God because my life has return to what should it be....=)...i'm so glad that me n my friend,i mean my best friend become close again..hehehe...it means that, if we're facing some sort of problem like that,we need to calm down and let TIME heal it..k...=)...p/s: i really2 appreciate our friendship!!!..

T.H.A.N.X..!!!...

first of all,thank you very2 much..i just need your forgiveness and your smile towards me all over again....it's a lil' bit sad because you're not what i'm thinking...but,it's ok....our memories will stayed in my heart....thanx again....;)...now,let us b a nice and bubbly friends....=)

C.H.A.N.G.E.D..????

and here we go again...the 'things' is repeated all over again...i hate myself right now...i think,b'cos of your point of view towards me,i really2 hate myself right now....the big question mark on top of my head is, why do you asked me to changed who am i?..i don't want to be HYPOCRITE!!!..the most important thing,are you really changed?..if you asked me, i answer NO!!!!..you'll not make that thing if you've changed!!....i loss my mood because of what you said..thanx!

money@duit@tusin@qian....

mampos!!!!...aduusshhh!!..napa lah duit nie selalu ja bawa effect to life?..klu xda duit,merungut..ada duit,tmbh bingung nie...aisshhhh!!..mau pecah kepala otak fikir..bukan apa..cuma,klu xda duit kan,at least kita pnya limitation ada bah...ini??..klu ada duit,ada ja benda yg mau beli...sy pun xtau eh mau cakap apa lg...sy tension nie...sy takut $$$ sy finish cepat!!..HELP...HELP...HELP!!!!!

i'm confused..

hmm...today=full of confusion..wahhhhh!!!!!!!...i don't know why...huhu..is it about my $$$??..i guess,nope...but,from that day..I mean,since i started all the 'things',i became confused...huhuhu..i'm afraid that i did the wrong action...hurmm...whatever it is,i hope my instinct is totally & absolutely WRONG!!!!

wow!!!...me myself can't believe it...=)

wow!!!...at last,I've made my decision to start blogging...the 1st thing that i think when saw "BLOG" is BORING!!..that's because before this there's not much things happened around me + I'm MALAS...hehehe...but,day by day I think I should reconsider to start blogging...hurmm...where should I start?..hehehe...okay..my name is Tom..easy-to-laugh and happy-go-lucky...=)..i love to make friends...i don't care(I guess)...hehehe..as long as the person is sincere to be my friend,i would love that...peoples around me call me 'GeTeXX'...hahaha..maybe,because of my behaviour..hahaha..but,I'm used to it...okay..direct to the point...what is my main objectives to create my own blog?..hurmm..let me think...now,I know that blogging can be one of many ways to express our feeling..yeah!!..that's right...my feeling is not gonna be the same like yesterday,right...hehehe..sometimes,I'm sad...sometimes,I think i wanna cry...(eeeuww)...but,most of the time,I smile...=)..so,to all of you,don't shy2...just view my blog...gotta go!!!..=)